Sun
22
Mar '15

Why I’m Back

It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? 🙂

While I have most definitely thought of you during my absence (and missed you terribly), the thought of returning to the blog often seemed pointless. Haven’t I said it all already? And really, what’s the point?

I know I’m not the only who struggles with such thoughts. I know I’m not alone wondering sometimes if my work really matters, given all the pain and suffering in the world.

Yet no matter how loud those voices screamed at me, the desire to be here never went away. The joy I experienced in connecting with you was always in my heart.

This week, I was challenged by my two closest friends and confidantes to stop “talking” about returning and just WRITE. I even had a deadline to finish at least one post.

Yet even with the loving support (and not-so-gentle kicks in the ass), I wasn’t sure I could.

I wasn’t sure I had anything in me.

I was simply too afraid to show up again.
(and yes, that is very hard to admit publicly.)

As I got up this morning, I asked for help in meeting my “deadline.” I was guided to the 21-day Meditation Experience that Oprah and Deepak Chopra are hosting again. As I opened Day 2 of this series, I burst into tears as I read the day’s centering thought:

I am here to bring more love into the world.

Suddenly, there was no pressure. No need to get it “right.” No need to do anything other than remember that “I am here to bring more love into the world.”

(And by the way, so are you! 🙂 )

I do this by writing what’s in my heart. By giving myself permission to be a messy human, doing the best I can, and sharing what I’ve learned (even if I’m still going thru it).

I cried through the entire meditation and as I opened my eyes, I caught sight of this line from a writing manifesto I downloaded earlier in the week, compliments of Cynthia Morris at Original Impulse:

Writing is an act of love.

Yes.It.Is.

So, I’m back.

Letting LOVE lead.

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In service AND in LOVE,

Lisa

10 Comments »

10 Responses to “Why I’m Back”

  1. Alyson Says:

    Wahoo! Great to see you here. It has been too long yet a blink of the eyelash. Much love to you! I ditched FB for a while so do not be surprised when I remember to send a re friend request.

  2. Lisa Says:

    Hey Alyson! Was really touched to see your comment. I’m not spending much time on FB these days, so no worries. Grateful to have you in my corner. Much love back.

  3. Carol Hess Says:

    Writing is indeed an act of love. I too took a long break from my blog. I’m so glad we’re both back, Lisa. The world needs our words, our light, and our love. It’s the perfect time for us to start speaking our truth.

  4. Lisa Says:

    Thanks, Coach! Was so glad to see you back at your blog as well. Scary thing, this “speaking our truth.” But needed, I know. Thanks for always believing in me.

  5. Robin LeVine Says:

    I don’t care how you show up… I’m just glad you do!

  6. Lisa Says:

    Thank you, Robin! Miss you lots!!

  7. Pamela Taylor Says:

    Hey Lisa,

    We all need a good dose of your LOVE; sometimes when we least expect it.

    Glad you’re back!

    Pam

  8. Lisa Says:

    Thank you, Pam! It’s good to be back. <3

  9. Eloiza Says:

    Welcome back! Sending you much love. Eloiza

  10. Lisa Says:

    Hey E! Thank you so much. So grateful for your love and inspiration.