What was I thinking?

Or more appropriately, why did I put my a** on the line and enter this contest?

Fear.

Plain and simple.

When the suggestion came to enter the contest (from someone I respect deeply), I was shocked.  The only reason I had given her the blog address (remember, I don’t promote this) was to get some feedback about my next step.

You see, I was actually going to shut the blog down.

I felt the time had come to move on, but during a meditation in the midst of my most awesome week, the voice shouted “NO!  There are gems there.  Do NOT hide them.”

Man…I love and hate that voice all at the same time.

So when the fear showed up as I contemplated her suggestion, I had a choice to make.

Say “no” and continue to hide.

Or say “YES!” take the leap and really begin to put myself out there.

Really out there.

Because the whole point of this blog has always been, who you are is more than enough.

Stop hiding.

Cut the crap.

You know more than you think you do.

You don’t have to have all the answers.

You have a great story to tell.

And the world needs your gifts.

…The greatest one being YOUR AUTHENTIC-OPINIONATED-SCARED-COURAGEOUS-POTTY MOUTHED-ELOQUENT- EMPATHIC-INTUITIVE-KICK ASS COACH SELF.

Yeah…HER.

ALL of HER.

(gulp)

So, here I am.

On the verge of vomiting at the thought of this being read by people I don’t know.

Having had not one but TWO nightmares in just the past 24 hours to remind me that there will be some people who don’t like the blog, me or my style.

but…

Writing anyway.

and…

Asking for your vote of support. (Thank you.  And be sure to leave a comment about how I rock your world. )

I’ve already “won” this contest. Because I took my fear by the hand (may not be so gentle next week, tho’) and showed up.

And I want you to know, you can do the same.

Because if just one person feels that they, too, can be their awesometastic, outrageous, juicy, over-the-top, and freakin’ scared self while saying “I love you” first or writing their first blog post, or leaving their soul-sucking job in the middle of  a recession to pursue a dream AND love themselves anyway, then I’m doing what I came to do.

And what could be better than that?

What was I thinking?

The time has come to play a bigger game.

Are you ready?

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What would you love to accomplish today that would feel like a win?

Me:  I finished this blog post. (Whew)

You?

(If you need support, let me know)

Cheering you on,

Lisa