124 days into my #6monthchallenge, I open a Facebook message from a long-time reader and super supporter that read:
Post, baby, post.
I had to chuckle.
Because today I was seriously contemplating shutting down the blog to do…I don’t know what.
I’ve learned a lot over the past 124 days, but the biggest thing is…
(drum roll, please)
I don’t take my writing seriously.
I don’t have any writing “ritual.”
I don’t set aside any specific time to write.
I don’t have any *special* place to write.
I don’t have any compelling reasons to write.
I write because I have something to say.
Or most accurately, because something inside of me needs to be voiced.
And when I don’t have anything to say, writing becomes a chore.
(One more thing on my list of “want-to-but-never-get-around-to-doing-it-right”.)
So the question that begs to be answered is, “What does writing RIGHT look like?”
I find myself, far too often, worried about this.
About getting it RIGHT.
Seriously, it’s MY writing.
Others may judge it, love it, criticize or celebrate it, but it’s up to me to decide that MY writing is RIGHT for ME.
So when the hell are you going to get around to that, Lisa?
“Now” would be the appropriate answer, yes?
But it isn’t honest.
‘Cause I’m not ready.
Or maybe I’m more ready than I believe.
In that brief admission, it dawned on me that my writing is RIGHT when it’s honest.
When I acknowledge what I am feeling.
When I write that I’m…
…maybe that’s enough to make it RIGHT.
There it is again.
Will it ever be enough?
Only I can decide
Today it is.
124 days into this challenge, I realize that the only measuring stick that matters is the one I hold.
Or the one I decide to put down.
124 days into this challenge, I can accept that my writing is right.
It’s time to trust it.