I wrote this post during my “blogcation”. I have read it dozens of times. Even shared it with my bff’s , Lori and Susan, for feedback. Yet I couldn’t bring myself to hit “publish”. As I read it (again) I figured out why. One: I am heart-broken that I will probably never get the chance to say, “I’m sorry” face-to-face to the person who inspired this post. Two: I am ashamed that I dismissed and hurt someone so deeply because I couldn’t accept what they were offering with a grateful heart. And three: It’s embarrassing to admit that trusting myself is still hard when I’m in pain. (Yet it’s when I need to do it the most.)
Whatever we are waiting for – peace of mind, contentment, grace, the inner awareness of simple abundance – it will surely come to us, but only when we are ready to receive it with an open and grateful heart. Sarah Ban Breathnach
Several weeks ago just after I wrote “I Wish You Were Dead,” I had an epiphany.
I knew it was coming. Writing that post was very painful and the Universe was desperately trying to get me to take on a new perspective about an old situation. I just wasn’t going there willingly.
I was (still) angry.
I was (still) hurting.
And I wanted the resolution I wanted. (more…)