Sun
22
Mar '15

Why I’m Back

It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? :)

While I have most definitely thought of you during my absence (and missed you terribly), the thought of returning to the blog often seemed pointless. Haven’t I said it all already? And really, what’s the point?

I know I’m not the only who struggles with such thoughts. I know I’m not alone wondering sometimes if my work really matters, given all the pain and suffering in the world.

Yet no matter how loud those voices screamed at me, the desire to be here never went away. The joy I experienced in connecting with you was always in my heart.

This week, I was challenged by my two closest friends and confidantes to stop “talking” about returning and just WRITE. I even had a deadline to finish at least one post.

Yet even with the loving support (and not-so-gentle kicks in the ass), I wasn’t sure I could.

I wasn’t sure I had anything in me.

I was simply too afraid to show up again.
(and yes, that is very hard to admit publicly.)

As I got up this morning, I asked for help in meeting my “deadline.” I was guided to the 21-day Meditation Experience that Oprah and Deepak Chopra are hosting again. As I opened Day 2 of this series, I burst into tears as I read the day’s centering thought:

I am here to bring more love into the world.

Suddenly, there was no pressure. No need to get it “right.” No need to do anything other than remember that “I am here to bring more love into the world.”

(And by the way, so are you! :) )

I do this by writing what’s in my heart. By giving myself permission to be a messy human, doing the best I can, and sharing what I’ve learned (even if I’m still going thru it).

I cried through the entire meditation and as I opened my eyes, I caught sight of this line from a writing manifesto I downloaded earlier in the week, compliments of Cynthia Morris at Original Impulse:

Writing is an act of love.

Yes.It.Is.

So, I’m back.

Letting LOVE lead.

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In service AND in LOVE,

Lisa

Thu
13
Dec '12

When it sucks

An old college friend of mine has cancer.

C-A-N-C-E-R

The morning I found out (on Facebook) I got angry.

Really angry. (more…)

Fri
10
Jun '11

Balls not required

I still have the final 3 episodes of Oprah on my DVR.

I started to watch the star-studded episode and was so thrilled to see Madonna come out on stage.

Considering all this woman has accomplished in her own right, I found it moving that she admired Oprah. I hung on every word until she said of Oprah, “You’ve got balls.” (more…)

Tue
3
May '11

Looking in the Mirror

“One aspect of being human is our ability to choose our own behavior; more specifically, our capacity to return good for evil, love for hate, dignity for indignity.” – Pamela Gerloff

“2 wrongs don’t make a right.”

Isn’t that the old saying?

Too bad it isn’t true.

“Right” is simply in the eye of the beholder.
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Tue
1
Feb '11

Day 124

photo credit: luigi diamanti

124 days into my #6monthchallenge, I open a Facebook message from a long-time reader and super supporter that read:

Post, baby, post.

I had to chuckle. (more…)