A Growth Spurt

LOTS of things have happened since my last post.  Shifts that require a book to share, but suffice it to say, “I’m growing!”

I’m embarking on a 30 day journey in which I have committed to listening to my inner wisdom each day AND taking the action that wisdom requests.  I’ve been hit and miss with this stuff in the past because the action that often seems to come out of such meditation didn’t make sense or seem to be leading to what I really wanted.

The 30 day challenge my coach put before me is to let go of listening to Spirit for the sake of getting what I want.  The exercise, ultimately, will show me the way to actively seeking Spirit for no other reason than “I want to–above all else.”

Well, I want God to do what I want.  If most religious people were honest with themselves, they “follow” God out of fear.   Not all, mind you, but at least the majority of people I know.

If you took away the fear of hell, fire and damnation, the fear that you won’t be “blessed” or your family won’t be “protected”,  would you still choose to “follow”?

The answer for me was NO.

It’s been an arduous 10 year journey in reconstructing my belief system and seeing the Divine in a new light.  Indeed, if this Higher Power existed, I wanted to know and experience IT, without fear of what would happen if I chose otherwise.

Just 7 days into this 30 day “experiment”, I am learning something different..about myself and Spirit.   What I’ve known intellectually for 10 years is now, very slowly, becoming my experience.

And that is..we are One.

Words cannot do justice to the feelings I have experienced in the moments where this becomes my “reality”.  A joy, peace, BLISSFULNESS, comes over me.  I “see” everything with love and appreciation.  Nothing is “wrong.”  When I look thru Spirit’s eyes, I see perfection in people and circumstances.  It’s mind-blowing.

My heart is so open.  I feel like I could hug everyone I meet.  I “know” that everything is happening as it should be and the outcome is assured.

Heaven IS in those moments.

I wish I could say that those moments last.  They don’t.  My humanness kicks in and I get cranky about something and start complaining.   I go into fear and wonder how I am going to make another week with my husband so far away…etc.

But now, I have “Heaven” to go to.  To remember.  To recreate.  And I am choosing to do so, more and more, and more.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

I AM Growing.